The hate I had for this book will never overcome the love that was created. It wasn't till the very last meager sentence of the book that I understood the concept, and all the time I thought I wasted reading something dull and unexciting had become worth it in that very last page. To start off I'm just going to say that this book for most of it was utterly boring. Nothing really adventurous had happened. If it had ended differently I would have given it a completely terrible rating. Not only did this book make me literally fall asleep while reading only twenty pages, it was one of the best books I've ever read. The only thing that really kept me going was how the realization of George Orwell's prediction was right on point for our reality now. Every big statement in this book was so true about our society that I wouldn't anything that I had thought about the government previously. This shift in my moral thought made me think like this because a politicians job is to follow the law and what if the law is something that is a loop-hole that's really keeps everyone from being free? Is our country really the home of the free? It also became apparent to me that I so enclosed while reading this book, that I never once take a risk that could end in either some dreadful outcome or in one that I would never regret. One of the quotes I feel this connected most to was "freedom is slavery" because I have always looked at freedom as something that has kept my mind in a lingering though on no possibility on what to do which has propelled a one way perspective out of me. This was something that was made to be my parents and their parents and their parents before them because our nation has only taught one way in all of it's existence, that good is bad. Doing something that makes you feel adventurous but is a risk of something dangerous is something more than just a thought and never reality because making this reality is too dangerous for anyone to handle. It doesn't matter I believed before, only what i believe now because I can now change the outcome of all things in my future. This book not only changed me to think different but to do different and that I don't was to be timid about the world. Then too, I cannot always be so trusting in what I hear from the news because the the news get's it from inside sources and they get it from the government or government officials. So, not matter how much other people would want to burn this book and think it was a waste of their time, I have been inspired my it and would read it a thousand times over. The world is a dangerous place and we might as well make the most of it before it becomes dull. To George Orwell a man I will always admire, Kaya
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With all the adrenaline that had been living inside me, it built increasingly over the past days leading to the trial but all came to one raging halt as I stood up to examine the first witness. The adrealine that had been keeping me going on energy was now replaced by fear of the pressure to become something..someone I worked so hard to be in the short time. In this mock trial project which took place in the spand of a week's time we the students were preparing to play a role in the court of California to prove that the accused were either guilty or not guilty beyond reasonable doubt. As a cross-examination lawyer I learned the part of what I had to do to make the jury believe someone was not credible. I learned what I could have done better and what I became better at through this learning of the law experience. In this project of court trials I learned a valuable lesson. My own limits. Learning my own limits might have cost a high price for my team but overall I think we all learned many valuble lessons. At the beggining of this project I took on the responsibilty of taking on 2 cross-examinations and presenting the closing statment which now that I look back on was WAY too much for me to take on. Especially, this became challenging with my home-life activites and my volleyball schedule. I had been slowly working on this project in small chunks, more of finding evidence in testimonies that i could use. It became more difficult as the trial approach to really write out my questions, it wasn't that I didn't know what to ask/say it was that I had so much to say. Which I think bled through into my first witness examination but before I had been staying up till 2am working on my questions and closing statement. I didn't think I would have this much work, a couple of days before until that very momment. In that momment I relized that this was too much for me and I was in way over my head. In preperation of this trial I not only learned my limits but improved on my weaknesses. One of my main one's being that there are some momments where I am controling. With being controling I think it's more something that grew along with be a confidant leader (even though it shouldn't have), it became something of a habit. With this habit, I never try to act with these intentions, it's just that I want so much for each of the groups I'm in too do well, and in the past I felt in order to do that was to be a constant leader. Though, in this project I grew on my overbearingness and trusted my group members to do their parts, with also helping the rest of the group as well. In even the short spand of this week I had so much enjoyment come out into my work and I never have felt so engaged in any of my groups before, exept for this time. This project brought the best out of people, by making them go out of their comfort zone and stepping up to the challenge of lifting the group as a leader, then lowering down when someone else became especially good at it. In this challenge I felt partically that I had improved on my flaws and got to learn from others in their leadership roles. So, even through all the stress of staying up till 2am, confusion of learning something completely new, and the urge to be a control freak, it was all worth it because I not only became closer to this group of "colleages" but grew on aspects of myself through this project. When learning what my limits are, I now know how to approach a complex project with lots of componets to it with out going and trying to take a million things on at once. With the help of my group members, I was able to work on not being so controlling and taking a step back to view what others might be doing as a leader in that momment. In the beginging of this project all I wanted to do was win, win, win, but now I'm glad I didn't win because it allowed my to better reflect on myself issues and habits. At the end of the day it's what I took to learn and grow on is what counts. Winning is not always what leads you to success, Kaya Hey! So, i'm just going to start off by saying that I'm super excited to start bloging because it's just another way for people to get to know me, I guess. Currently, I am playing varsity indoor volleyball for the High Tech Raptors! Go Raptors! When I first got onto the team I was very nervous and timid (especially with the 5-1 rotation) because I only knew one other person and everyone else was a blank sheet of paper for me. After a short period of time I got to know each and everyone of the girls. Now, their like the sisters I never had! We have been playing small away and home games recently, which have, at different times been challenging but really a fun learnig experience. Though, today was the ultimate challenge for our team. Yesterday, we played to our hearts content and beat every team we played (including a division 2 varsity team which has never happened). Today, we played in National city for the championships at the "Red Devil's" high school gym. When we got to the gym we knew it would be a long day because 3 of our players couldn't make it to the games. Our first game we lost to a very strong team of players that were WAY out of our league. The second game we lost again, but knew they weren't the best team and we had beat our selves. During this game, I was put in the setter position which I had never done, so I was all over the place because I had know idea where the setter would be positioned. In the end, I learned that being a setter is a lot hard than I thought and a teams support can make all the difference. Our team supported each other so greatly through our losses that we bonded even more as a team by having some good laughs and encouraging props to each other. So...even though we didn't win I had a lot of fun for my first ever varsity volleyball tournament.
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